Making Peace with the Past

I already made peace! Am not the one who harbors anger deep in me.  You are forgiven BUT it does not mean the pain was forgotten.  (Do i make sense?)

I can still see you and smile with you and exchange pleasantries with you in the future, but, whatever you did before i forgave you — can never be forgotten.  Though it does not also mean that i still will hate you now because i can’ forget that incident,  it will just remind me that i should be more careful or cautious.  (Do i really make sense?)

So, there is a tendency that the closeness before will never be that close again in the present time.

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So much opposite of the text that goes with this devotional -

The Lord says, “Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past. Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening. Don’t you see it? I will make a road in the desert and rivers in the dry land.” ~ Isaiah 43:18-19 NCV

This devotional peace was shared with me through email subscription and i just like to share the beautiful quote that goes along with it:

“The wise man gives proper appreciation in his life to his past. He learns to sift the sawdust of heritage in order to find the nuggets  that make the current moment have any meaning.” ~ Grady Nutt.

God is Obviously Good

…even when i think that there is no solution to my problems.

…even when am wrapped up in my own chaotic world.

…even when am very very angry deep inside

…even when there are so some  people over there who tries to discourage me

…even when even am feeling sick

…even when there are people who try to piss me

…even when there are these so called friends that acted like they are not friends

…even when adrenaline slowed down and am feeling weak and nauseated – God is telling me to go home and take rest because the day is now over and tomorrow will be another day.

Uli nako!

Promise, will do my assignments within the next two days. Got 6 to do.

Even when on all of the above because i can still SMILE AND SMILE and thank Him for life.

Feeling Mushy

“When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers and remember that’s where mine fit perfectly.”

I grabbed that from a friend’s shout out box in Facebook.  It sounds so cute and ohhh i feel mushy and makes me miss someone so much.  That someone not blood related to me. hahaha and am sure ya know what i mean.  I think it’s just normal for me  to feel (sometime) am missing someone who does not really miss me at all.  So what i will do i will just put in my right hand into that space of the left hand and think — life must go on.

Good evening, everyone!

Not So Yeheyy!

There is an on going transport strike nation-wide today.  Classes are suspended today here in our city. I dunno in other places.  But here in Iligan, aside from the transport strike the bombing scare is also high, so for peace and safety of the students, there will be no class today.  I was ecstatic but not so when we were told that no classes but we are told to report to office. That is why it is not so “yeheyy” hahaha.

I thought of going to the gym if this day is implemented holiday.  Or i think going to the beach would be great.  The weather is very fine.

Health update:

I caught the cold virus again.  My nose is stuffed and i also feel uncomfortable in my ears.  Am armored with several pieces of hanky though the sides of my nose is already reddish.

Farmtown update:

I purchased 3 lot sizes yesterday until the biggest.  All i need now is to save a week or two weeks earning to buy a white house and maybe a pond.  Need money too to buy more plots.

New Meme Update:

So far a handful joined and i hope that there will be more coming up today.   If you have not joined yet, come by and join us.

I really don’t feel well now yet i wanna do things exciting.  I feel like cooking but i dunno what to cook.  I like to eat but dunno what i like to eat. hahaha

Anyway, am updating thinking that there’s someone out there who would like to know what’s up with me.

Opss another thing — i sang duet with someone at the CEU this morning.  Tess and I sang “Trials That Make Pure Gold.”   Ma’am Apple spoke on working values, the one we  (secretaries) took up during the seminar last July 5.

Rest Well MJ!

Watching the live coverage of MJ’s memorial service on TV made me feel like i was really inside the Staples building.  Then while watching it here in the Philippines made me feel like i was on the last night of the wake of MJ. Witnessing the program made me accept the fact that yea, he is gone and is resting now.  For sure he is in a better place.

The tributes for him given by friends and family were very touching.  I started to get emo when Brooke Shields spoke.  She spoke about her friendship with MJ.  The loving words from her brother, the songs performed by friends and yeah his brother, Usher;  the encouraging words from the ministers especially MLK; and the words from his daughter, Paris —- oh it’s just so sad.  Am sure am not the only one who shed a tear hearing Paris declares her love for her dad.

Anyway,  having not enough sleep last night is worth it.  I’ve witnessed MJ’s memorial.  I just have one wish in mind — wish that MJ can see and have heard all the words of love from friends, family, and fans.  Well, i know he did not die alone but somehow id like to think that MJ did not feel so alone when he breath his last.

Good mornin!

Happy July 1!

Hey everyone!  How time flies!  It’s now July.  I love this month because this is my birth month and also the birth month of my mom.  Though we don’t have something to celebrate our bdays yet i love my birthday and i love the feeling that another year is to be added to my life. 

I wish everyone of you a happy and blessedful July!

A Rant & A New Meme

There has been no internet connection at home since late Friday night.  I slept so late friday and at call came past 12 am requesting me to get online and when i did — there was no connection anymore.  It’s the same thing yesterday and today before i left for work.  Someone called up (an agent) at home to inquire if i have MYDSL connection and they asked if i can get online — my mom told her that we have but we don’t have connection.  Good news to her because so many of her clients called her up telling her that the modem she delivered is defective because they can’t connect. Hahaha they did not know that there is really no connection from the main server.

Anyway, am tired working on Sundays but today i love it because i can do my farming and also do my blogging.  I’ve just done my bloghopping for the Photohunt – Creamy meme and i got really hungry looking at the creamy foods they posted. Now am off to lunch after this post.

While bloghopping i come across this meme - SOOC – Saturday -  hosted by Melody of Slurping Life. SOOC is a meme wherein you will post STRAIGHT-OUT-OFTHE-CAMERA photos (without alteration on the hue and everything and maybe just the size.   Cropping is now even allowed.

I think it’s an interesting meme and i will try to join next Saturday.

Wanted Date!

I am posting wanted because the quiz results told said that “i can date again” or “i am ready to date again” is what it exactly said.  So if you think you are single as divorce or widower, above 40 but not more than 60 (lols), with or without kids, non smoker, non drinker, no vices,  loves life in all it’s aspect, believes in God –then contact me. Ask a friend for my number.  I will be waiting for your text or call…opsss email will do. hahaha

Anyway, just posted this to wake me up.  Am tired and sleepy eh and am at work.  There’s no harvest at my farm.  All are to be harvested tomorrow yet.

On Fasting

I think it would not be bad if once a week i will go on fasting. At least the daytime meals and just have a light porridge in the evening. Maybe after a month or so my weight will go down and it won’t be dangerous anymore to try on using a diet pill that my cousin is recommending me. It helped her alot coupled with exercise so she thinks it will also work great with me.

It’s not 2 pm and i haven’t had my lunch yet.  But i ate 1 piece of kisses.  Am craving for some pizza or baked macaroni.  I wish i can eat them later tonight — in my dreams. hahahaa

I Thought Guys Do Not Need Signals!

I love matchmaking.  It seems i can see that this girl is good for that guy and vice versa.  I only do it with my friends.  Although for some years now even my online friendships i also find myself matchmaking for that friend by supporting her or him whoever he/she likes.

This morning i happen to chat for a minute with a long time friend.  I cannot forget him because i matched him with one of my close friends from college.  I really thought they would make it out but was just surprise when later, my girlfriend told me that she is engaged to another guy.  But even then i still did not stop matching her with him.   She even candidly asked me if I am paid by the guy to matchmake them.  Of course i said no — i just like the both of them to be with each other forever.  Anyways, my girlfriend is now married but the guy is still happily single.

He came from a study in another city and i asked him why he did not show interest to on of his classmates in college who is still single now — he said that the girl did not give him any signs that “she can be courted.”    Ha? I laughed at the idea.  I told him how will you know if she is not interested when you don’t ask her?  Anyway, we ended up the chat with a laugh when i told him that if am still single then it will be me who will ask him to marry him. lol!  And he surely agreed! lol!

By the way, he graduated from a masteral course last March and he said that i owe him a gift.  I then thought of browsing audio racks because he might be interested to pick one to  improve the guy ambience of his bedroom.  I won’t pick it for him as a gift.  I just suggest he should enjoy the time in making his room nice just for him because when he picks a wife for sure the ambience will be changed into a “couples” ambience.  Yeah? Right!